Feelings behind the door

The door is locked

Lonely in the dark room

The door is locked

Turn the music up

The door is locked

I grab the razor

The door is locked

I'm trapped with my feelings

The door is locked

Turn the music up

I grab the razor

I think to myself

"Why should I live another day?"

The door is locked

I cry as I move the razor across my risk.

Turn the music up

It overcomes my feelings inside

The door is locked

Blood coming down my wrist

The door is locked

The pain inside is back again

The door is locked

I move the razor across my wrist

The door is locked

I turn the music up

So you wont here me scream

The door is locked...

And the door wont open.

My Baby Sister

"She doesn't have much time with us, I'm sorry to say this but she's going to die." These were the words flowing around the dark, depressed, sad, room October 18,2002. Everyone looked at each other side by side up and down with a sad face that was about to burst out of salty tears. I was there holding her tight where I felt never to let go! I remember her in my arms, she was so tiny and skinny,her skin was reddish,purple, it was undescriptable. She had her blue and white soft,smooth blanket wrapped around her, an also white knit warm hat, and a light blue dog with yellow chickens with blue sailor hat on top of their heads with blue spotted dots with a sky blue ribbon around the dog's neck. When resting in my arms I look into her eyes, I start to shed tears. I look into the future to see my baby sister as an smart, strong independent woman with a loved one by her side and small alike little kids by her, who she cares and loves. When she got taken away from my arms I tried to fight back to keep her with me but I knew I had to turn her in, I gave her a deep smooth kiss, I knew this was a good-bye for good. As I turned her in and spread my arm straight forward to do so, I felt a part of me vanishing away as nothing. All the fun possible things we could have done together were dragged around the world by the wind. In that moment I wanted to be with her I wanted to die with her but I knew that was impossible, life goes on and you just have to live with it and move on but can always stay in you're heart.

"Forever and always in my heart, I love you baby sister!"♥

R.I.P(October 18,2002) Hilda Escalante Venegas

What is this I feel?

I feel butterflies in my stomach

Shivers rushing through my body

My heart is skipping beats

My eyes are glued to him not a movement nor a blink

Wondering what this is am feeling inside of me

He turned

And making contact with me

He knew that our hearts were screaming t...

The passion of love!♥

♥Thinking of you!♥

I can't sleep...

Thinking of you

I can't believe you came up to me and said...

"I love you"

I just wanna hold you tight

And never let go!

I can't stop thinking...

Thinking of you and me

Thinking that you're thinking of me

I can't sleep

I can't stop...

Stop thinking of you...

"I love you too!"♥